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I have never been a fangirl.   Ever.
But all of a sudden I have caught One Direction Fever.
I caught it from my best friend, and now it has totally consumed me.
It started a month ago.....and then I became a Directionator.

I stayed that way for a long time, and THEN....

I started looking at all their interviews, buying all their posters and magazines,
and I am now an official Directioner. I never thought that I would say that in my life.

But those guys are AMAZING. They are sooooooo talented.


I honestly don't know what has happened to me. I have never obsessed
over a boy band until now. They are truly freakin awesome though

Tomorrow I have to go do that speech thingie.
I'm really nervous. I already have it written..so
wish me luck

I have a feeling that it's gonna suck like really bad.

Ok,
so I've been asked to be a public speaker for this
drug program. I said that I would but I have no idea how to write out
this speech. I'm supposed to describe how my mother doing drugs
almost ruined my life and how I got through it and what I am going
to do with my life now. I don't know how to write it and I'm really nervous.

Also,
I know this teacher who sings REALLY GOOD,
and he wants me to write him a song.
I don't know what to write about that either.
I haven't wrote anything but essays lately.
Every time I try to write something I can never
find a way to start. If I only had something good to write
about there wouldn't be that big of a problem.

I want to start writing songs just to write them but I can never think
of something to write on. I kind of have an idea but it never comes
out sounding right.

If you guyz have any advice on this kind of stuff pleaz
let me know

Wow... I haven't wrote a journal in forever....................

Anywayz,
I have spent my entire freetime listening to Green Day.
I have obsession issues!!!!!

This journal is pointless and random I know.
I'm very bored and don't care.

Is it just me or is Billie Joe Armstrong like the hottest guy ever?!?!?!?!?

Just got through watching the the Boulevard of Broken Dreams music
video for like the gazillionth time! Just can't get enough of that song.

AWESOME......

I'm going to upload a pic of my bedroom door with all of my
Green Day pics on it..............and my locker....


I mean come on........WHO IN @!$*! DOESN"T LOVE GREEN
DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

(Green Day is definately an old band though. My dad used to listen to them)

<3 Green Day forever.
<3 Billie Joe Armstrong
<3 Tre Cool
<3 Mike Dirnt

Today was horrible!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
People were getting on my nerves all day.
Today made me realize just how much I hate
some people I swear I could have killed someone.
Today definetly goes on my suckiest days list. I have felt like crap
this whole week thanks to some people. Sometimes I really want
to move schools because I miss all my old friends. I don't want to
accept the fact that I have to make new friends and get on with my life.
I haven't had true  fun since May when I was with my friends. Don't get me wrong, I mean I've
made a lot of new friends but I miss my friends sooooooooo much!!!!!
I just want to hang out like we used to. Me and my best friend were unseperable,
and now there's like this huge void. She was always there for me and now everytime
something bad happens I"m so used to her being at my side through thick and thin that I can't
suck it up and go on. We always had fun and could care less what happened as long as we
would see each other at school the next day. I thought that I would make new friends and that
would fill the void but it don't. As much as I love my new friends I can't replace her.
Almost none of my old friends know where I'm at. It's like I dissappeared I want to go back
but that would be running away from my problems. I want everything to go back the way it was before
I left. I feel like such a cry baby because I'm always complaining about stuff but
at this point in time my life truly sucks................ I FEEL TERRIBLE!!!!!!!!!